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I have been feeling down for a couple of weeks and every day is a struggle. I could not drag myself to do anything. When I was in Paris in October, I did not want to come back to the UK, I wanted to stay there. I have been living alone for almost 2 years doing everything from home and having just little interaction. Thinking about it, it is only this year that I started to go back to church, serve, and gradually back to the office. I went from being inactive to being active.
While in Paris I told my sister about it who advised me to listen to a sermon by Dereck Prince on deliverance. Bear in mind I have already done self-deliverance and manifestation happen which led to my spiritual sense being unlocked (at least I believe so). So, I thought what could I have done to get the bad spirit within me? So, I followed Dereck Prince's video the first time it was late and I fell asleep and did not watch till the end. In my sleep, I had a bad dream and I understood there was a spirit of perversion around me who abused me in my dream. I was sad when I woke up and disappointed. After all, God freed me from masturbation, I do not watch pornography. I thought it might be because I started to watch dynasty on Netflix but as it was not right with my spirit I stopped, was it because I did not do a prayer of repentance? I spent 2 days overthinking it and not praying about it.... which is what I usually do or should I say I used to do; I lament for 2 to 3 days sometimes more, and then I start praying about it.
Once the lamentation was over, as other things in the family were happening, I got angry, I spoke to that spirit that it has to leave me and my family alone and pray to God to remember His covenant. Then I watched again the sermon by Dereck Prince on deliverance during the day to not fall asleep through it. Watching it was difficult
as I kept on stopping it to watch other videos, I was distracted because it was the day I was supposed to go back to England and I did not want to, until I resign myself to watching it till the end.
I watched it, and follow the instruction at the end for self-deliverance, and.... nothing happen, no manifestation, no scream, no vomit no cough nothing.
When my sister came back from work, I told her "I know now I am not possessed by an evil spirit but I am tormented by one for sure" to which she replied now you know it is not you. She also told me that I should be careful to not burn out and that what I was describing lead her to think that I was not far from a burnout
So, I decided to keep my ticket to go back to England as I realised, I would have to lie at work if I wanted to remain in France, and surely God did not want to do so. And God rewarded my obedience. Due to the strike on Wednesday my train arrived at 11:40 pm at St Pancras instead of 10:30 pm. Because of it, I had no train to go back home and Eurostar paid for the taxi to bring me home which cost £170 and I got compensation yeah!!!
I prayed to God and asked Him why I was tormented and I had a vision of me kneeling, praying and there was a bible in front of me. And as I was praying and reading the Bible, there was a great light coming within me growing bigger and bigger around me. I then understood that the reason why this evil spirit tormented me was due to my lack of consistency in reading the Word of God and praying. It was due to my lack of taking time off to spend time with God. Church became a type of Job I was going there to serve more than dwelling in his presence. The Holy Spirit then give me the instruction to listen every day to the book of Romans and speak in tongues
about it for 1 month. Let me tell you the revelation I had from day 1 was... I will write another article about it and about the spirit of perversion too and why it has been tormenting me for so long.
In this season of my life, it is all about being intentional to get better, to spend quality time with God, and do things I will. It is time to voice when I am unwell and sometimes to say no. My life might be a mess, and my house is a mess nonetheless I decided to celebrate each step, today I was able to make my bed, or I was able to wash my clothes, shower, or cook. All these things that have become difficult for me I will celebrate until I get better.
My prayer for you is that may God expose any bad spirit that is tormenting you and the cause of it and as He is doing so that you will follow his instructions to be victorious over it as it is written in 1 Corinthians 15:57 "But thanks be to God! He gives us victory through our Lord Jesus Christ."
Amen
Stay Blessed!
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